Prescribed meds suck!!

It has been a few days since I last posted anything on my blog.  I have been wanting to but not really up to it at times and then I would just forget.

Well, I have been suffering with really bad sweats due to not being able to wear a hormone patch.  As soon as I learned of my diagnosis of breast cancer, my doctor made me remove it.  So instantly, I started to get hot flashes like no other.  They were horrible.  Last week, my oncologist prescribed a medication that would help with the sweats.  Actually, it is an anti-depressant called Effexor.  I start taking the pills and the very next morning, I wake up with a major headache and really bad nausea.  Well, I laid around from Wednesday to Friday before I decided to call my doctor.  He tells me that is some of the side effects of taking this pill.  Then he prescribes another pill to combat the nausea and that gives me constipation.  Boy oh boy, this is killing me.  I see right now that chemo is probably going to kick my butt.  I see now that I am going to have to take lots of pills.  I just pray that I can keep them organized and take the right pills at the right time.  I also hope that I don't get all the bad side effects from chemo that most people get.  There is a slim chance that I won't.  I can only be hopeful.  One side effect that I did get from the pills is being tired.  I just feel so lazy.  I am really trying to fight that feeling but it is so hard.  I have no energy and I can't even drink caffeine.  That is a big NO NO.  So no Red Bull, no Coffee, no Tea and no Monster!!  Oh, man, I just pray for some energy right about now.

Had a nice relaxed weekend.  Got out for awhile to watch some good AAU basketball.  It was nice seeing people that I know in the circuit.  However, it just tires me out so much.  I am really trying to build up my energy level so I can return to work next week.  Something that I am very anxious to do.  I miss everyone and I am ready to get back to what I enjoy doing.

Yesterday, I went to see my breast surgeon so he could examine the incision.  He said it looked great and that I didn't have to see him until 3 mos.  He also gave me a number for a plastic surgeon so that I can get reconstructive surgery.  I am excited about that.  I just need to wait until after my chemo is all done. But for now, I will just wear a fake boob.  LOL  Man, oh man!!  Soon, I will need to wear a fake boob, fake hair, fake eyebrows and fake  eyelashes.  I think out of all the fakes, I will probably not wear any fake hair.  That just isn't me.  We will have to see though.

Today, I woke up feeling so much better. Bandages off my breast and I see it healing well.  No nausea.  No headache.  Things are looking up.  I am actually feeling well enough to return to work. I feel so disconnected and it feels sad.  So many changes at work and I want to be involved.  I want to do so much at my job and this little side track has delayed me.  But it won't stop me me!! No, I am a believer in myself.  I am now looking forward to next year.  I can't wait to look back over this blog and remember how I was feeling.  I can't wait to tell others going through this ordeal for the first time, that it will be alright.  This journey is teaching me so much and it feels so good.  I love what is happening to my life right now.  I love how it is growing and developing.  God is amazing at showing us how to slow down and appreciate the small things in life.  :)

Chemo in 3 more days.  I am ready but a little nervous.  But that is to be expected.  I can handle it.  I am WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR!!

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman!!!!!