Pink is the New Black!!

These past few days have been slow for me.  I have mainly been just resting up and trying to regain energy.  I am officially sick of Lifetime now.  So I have resorted to reading news articles on the internet and reading magazines.  TV has now started to bore me.  I am so ready to return to my job and use my mind in a more useful way.  I have come to the realization that I could never just be a stay at home person.  I love to be around people too much.  Maybe it would be nice if I lived by the ocean, had lots of money in the bank, and I could travel whenever I wanted.  But until that day comes, I am so ready to return to my job!!  It will come soon enough.

Thursday was spent resting most of the day.  I was really tired from my day before and my joints were really sore.  Most of this day was spent in bed.  I chose to not take any pain pills because they knock me out and make me so useless.  So, I suffered through the pain and just laid in bed.  However, in the early afternoon, I had a visit from a friend and her daughter.  It was nice to see them and just catch up.  Getting visitors really makes me feel good.  Then in the afternoon, I got a text from a special young man.  He wanted to come visit and check on me.  I thought how sweet.  Well, we decided to go to a movie in the evening.  I hadn't been to a movie all summer.  This excited me.  I was in so much pain but I really wanted to see the movie.  Just to do things like I use to is what I need these days.  I am really working hard at not getting depressed.  I am now getting to the point where I want this all to be done.  But I know I have to be patient and not let it get me down.

So Andre, Kristina and I go to the movie to meet my special young man.  I didn't take a pain pill but I did bring one so when the movie was over, I could take it right away.  I wanted to be awake for my movie.  We arrive at the movie theatre and when I get there, I see not just one young man but five young men!  These are boys that I am very close to and I love like my own.  They bring me joy!  They make me feel so loved and cared for.  I feel blessed that they want to be around me.  I walk up to them and they all hug me.  Now, I didn't wear my wig.  This was the first time they have seen me bald.  I did have a hat on but one can easily tell that I am bald.  But what was so strange, was that these boys treated me like they always had.  It was a comedy and laughter is what I really needed.  I just looked at all those boys and it made me smile to think that they wanted to share this evening with me.  They could have been anywhere having fun like young boys do but they were here spending the evening with me. :)  I take my pain pill after the movie and wait for it to work it's magic.  And it does.

Woke up Friday not feeling so hot.  Feel like I am coming down with a cold or something.  This starts to worry me.  Chemo lowers my white blood cells.  These are the cells that fight off infection.  I start to worry if maybe I was going to get a cold and at the same time, praying I don't.  I don't want to be sick going into my chemo treatment.  Not even sure if they would allow me have chemo if I am sick.  So I decided to just rest and drink lots of vitamin C.  My joints were still sore and I take another pain pill.  I don't know if I was just tired, or this cold was getting to me.  I was maybe up for about 5 hours and then I feel asleep and slept most of the day.  Didn't feel like I was missing any sleep but my body was sure telling me it was tired.  The only thing that I hate is that when I woke up around 5:30 p.m., I knew it was going to be a very long night.  My sleeping pattern was going to be all messed up.  Oh, well.

It is so funny how I never use to like pink but now I love it.  It is my color of choice.  Mostly because of what it stands for.  Having Breast Cancer has shown me so much. It has opened my eyes to a lot of things.  I have met so many different people.  It has shown me the importance of friends, family and love! It wasn't a bad thing getting Breast Cancer but more of a blessing.  I know that sounds strange but it is true.  The things I know today or the way I live my life wouldn't be the same if I didn't get it. This whole journey has taught me so much.  I have learned so much.  I never realized how I have touched people.  Not trying to sound conceited but I am realizing that by being kind and smiling at someone can really make their day.  This is something I have always tried to do.  But this is me.  I give out to others what I want back.  Don't always get it but that isn't going to change me.  Evidently, I have touched some young boys that I know.  They went to the mall and bought pink G-shock watches.  That is huge.  They both vowed to wear the watches in honor of me!!  Wow, that is deep.  To be so young but care so much for someone and what they are going through is wonderful.  This gesture was greatly appreciated by me!  Just so nice to know that I have somehow, someway inspired these boys.  Kind souls tend to always find each other in this great big world of ours.

I also received my "Team Evelyn" t-shirts yesterday in the mail.  My friend and her lovely daughter's had them designed for me.  When I opened the box, it brought tears to my eyes.  It seems like I have been crying a lot these days.  Mostly tears of joy.  It is so amazing the outpour of love I am getting.  Looking at the shirts was just one of those times when I just feel so blessed that others care about me.  This shirt will remind me of how I have fought and survived breast cancer.  Something I set out to do at the very beginning of my journey!  This shirt makes me feel like I have already won for on this shirt it also says, "Claiming Victory."  I claimed victory at the very start.  I knew I had to believe that I would beat this.  I had to think positive and know that I would get through this with flying colors.  These shirts will hopefully help me earn money for my walk in November.  I pray that I have touched enough people that they will want to buy one for a cure for breast cancer or just for ME!!  :)